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I Hear so many things from this tower where I live,

there is no door to let you in, from here I see your world.

There is no lock for you to find, I keep my walls secure.

I do not wish to be alone, that is I mean with you..

I like to keep you at a length, for you I do not touch.

I like my cave that I have made, it serves me when you push.

How can I show my walls to you, when all you do is search?

You try to find a way around, to be my shining knight,

When all it is I want from you is a "thanks a bunch! Goodnight!"

Eternity

Eternity bleeding with a love,

no other thing can touch,

no time, no space, no glimpse of our place..

Immortal in my despair, I shake the hand of life, to strike

a deal with fate, and promise to her ugly face,

my soul for hope not hate.

"..."

So I've decided to post some of my poems...Trying to learn from a friend and share

my inner self with the world...

...Wishing the dust would settle and your face be left to recognize,

naked as the day begins, my scars left to heal in a sea of salt.

Words pressed against my lips, waiting in an empty conversation.

I have to believe that there is enough time in the world,

that there just might be enough for us to wake from this life

and see the past as just the morning breath on a cold window.

Sometimes I think we make even Angels, need to drink..

Oh my life how little it is,
to see it fly by like a leaf on a twig.

the moments we miss and memories
we blur, to see if we can't recall what we've heard,

about how to hold on, to the things that we love,
to the people we've hurt, to the grace from above,

Life can not be caught by our faulty hands,
it is something we must never demand,

it is a gift for which we should be grateful,
but so many times we are too hateful,

and never choose to give it a try,
to live our life before we die..



-L



"A Purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved." -Kurt Vonnegut

"Time is Liquid."

I sat this morning like I do most mornings, having a cig on my porch listening to my ipod and letting my mind wander among my problems or ideas on life. I love my mornings...

The quietness of the breeze swooshing by always brings a sense of peace to my spirit..

My life was recently turn upside down, and I've been trying to put it back together..Loss can really frack you up...

Though I have been through a lot of loss in the past two years I am ever grateful for the beauty it has brought into my life..Pain, sorrow, loss, are beautiful emotions that we get to endure and learn from...it is the seed to the beauty of growth.

The smell of coffee in the morning is such a delightful  aroma...

A few months back I got out of the habit I have, of reading a book a week...I miss it..I think I shall try to revive it.

I also lost my will to paint back then too...I miss it...I think that's one of the biggest contributions to my lack of self lately...painting is a way for me to breathe...

I like to look at life as a painting that hasn't fully dried yet..there are all these layers upon layers..coming together and making a beautifully tragic work of art.

-L

-"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh,

since there is less cleaning up to do afterwards." -Kurt Vonnegut

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

So over the past year or two I've been thinking about what it is I want from my life..and I started to think that how I was looking at it was all wrong. I use to think, " What do I want out of life? " instead of looking at it as, "What should I be pouring into my life?" I've spent a lot of my years trying to see what it is I can get out of life, and not a whole lot of time spent on what I can bring to it. What is the good that I can do? Where is the love that I can give? The world needs a little more than just good intentions, it needs to feel and see change...I NEED to feel and see my own heart change...and more than just that, I WANT to see my own heart change...I need it more than my own breath...


-L

"I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center."
-Kurt Vonnegut

"...There is no Why..."

I've started this blog as a place of refuge for my thoughts, I'm not sure what this place will become for me, if anything. Who knows which seeds they plant will grow...I wait anxiously as my thoughts role in...